Body map 10

Nondumiso developed her body map as a way to let her family and friends know that she has accepted the reality that she will die from HIV/AIDS, but through body mapping she found the fortitude to live. The dark blue dots on her silhouette represent the virus, while the red circles around them represent the ARVs consuming the virus.
Nondumiso Hlwele's statement

If you hear the president saying something you think it’s the truth. But here in South Africa the president is not always telling the truth. Jussis it’s bad.

After I started going to MSF, Doctors without Borders, I told both my parents that I was HIV positive. My mother said, “Why do all my children have to be like that?” A sangoma in Transkei had told her that all her children were going to be sick, but he never told her which disease they were going to have.

My brother told me about MSF when I got sick, sick, sick. I had things – the brown marks on my painting – like ringworms on my skin – it looked like a brown map. My skin was very light before but it slowly started to get a grey colour, then it went darker and darker. It started to itch when I was eating the TB tablets, then my skin started to peel like a snake. I felt like going underground. People were going to ask me, “What’s wrong with you?” Why are you so dark? So I just stayed inside the house and caught an early taxi to the clinic and came back again. I thought to myself there’s no future, I’m going to die. I have nothing. No children. My family is still poor.

The only things I want is to get rid of are these marks. I don’t know where I can go and just be me. The ARVs have helped a lot but this skin is taking time to get better. By the second month I was well. It’s amazing. When I had flu it would stay a long time, but now when I get flu, it goes away quickly.

On my picture I drew the virus – it’s a small blue dot. The red circles are the ARVs eating the virus and the virus is going down. The white is my blood. The ARVs are strong. Look what I have written under my left hand.